LOST

I've been wanting to blog about this for a while but really it is just too overwhelming of a task. I can not do it justice within a post or even one hundred posts. More than a few times I have stared at my blank blog post and backed out because I just can't do it. Can't do it. It's like trying to break a Tupperware bowl. 

So this is only a tip of the hat from me to LOST. I watch you every single thursday and talk about you to all of my lostie friends and even those friends that do not watch it, although they just shake their heads and smile at me like I am slightly crazy. They just don't understand. 

The freakin show is a masterpiece. 

If you have not seen it or if you have seen an episode here and there and then proceed to flipping the channel because it makes no sense to you. Just rent it. Start at the beginning (Season one, episode one) go from there and you won't look back. Actually you will look back quite often but you'll understand that when you start so don't worry about it now.  

(sigh)

Best show ever. 

Man Bag

Satchel. Messenger bag. What do you think about them? 

The usual friday lunch.

An hour full of Chipotle and Starbucks, sunlight and blue skies. 

My heart is breaking for someone very close to me

it's okay to be worn out

to throw your hands

and want to leave town

open your mouth

and tell me 

everything

we'll go from there

The answer to many of my problems

I realized that I want to save myself and use God to make me feel better all while acting out a Christian life to mask the emptiness in my heart. I'm not truly seeking God, I just wait for Him and throw up my hands when nothing happens. I'm so selfish and now confused on how to get back to the basics of what a relationship with God actually is. I've lost the realness of it. I've become numb and robot like in the fact that I always say to people and to myself that I want to "do this for God" or "use my gifts here for God." But I think in my heart I am trying to buy happiness from Him. My heart is in the wrong place. 

Vegas

Finally back from my trip to Vegas for the NAB convention. I am so glad to be back to the fresh air of Colorado.

I lived in Vegas for 14 years of my life. My family moved there from Charlton Massachusetts when I was 10 years old. I would consider Vegas my home town. I finished elementary school, worked my way through the confusing times of Jr. High and High School. I attended a community college for 3 years and transferred to the Art Institute of Las Vegas. I met life long friends and lifelong heartaches. I discovered what I loved and what I loathe. I owned and sold a Datsun 280zx that carried so many memories of freedom. Last but not least on this list of vagueness, I met my wife in Vegas.

All of these memories came rushing back as I stepped out of the airport and felt the warm city air. At that point and throughout the whole night, I missed my home town. I had wished that Tess was there with me, I wish that we were in my blue 280zx driving up the strip. I had wished that my brother was there with me planning another weekend trip to La Jolla.

By the end of the week these feelings faded fairly quickly. I realized that I just missed all these memories, not Vegas. It doesn't really matter where you live but how you live. It seems that I have forgotten how to make memories like these.

Anchor Light Films! My intro...

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Crash course in Wedding Videography

Filmed my first wedding this past weekend. It went fairly smooth, definitely no major problems. The wedding was a bit awkward because the bride and groom didn't want any type of "posing" type photography so that meant no "posing" type of videography on my part and made it feel like we were imposing with our cameras. 

The photographer they had was kind of a jerk, he wouldn't talk to me and would just ignore the questions that I had for him. I think he was intimidated and jealous that we were there. It was weird. Also there was no reception so we just filmed the ceremony. 

 I'm starting to edit it and will be posting a highlights reel on here as soon as it is done. 

This fleeting moment is worth what?

Through a link here and a link there I read a blog that hit me hard today. I quote from here.

"Our life here on earth will be over in the blink of an eye, compared to eternity. Really, that is quite an incredible thought when you really sit down and think about it and all that it means. It is difficult to fully comprehend the magnitude of the importance of this extremely brief life in light of eternity.

The fears, worries, situations and pursuits of happiness that naturally come with this life can consume us but in the light of eternity all these things of the world are worthless. Useless. They are like a vapor- like we are- here one moment and gone the next. We give them far more importance than they are worth. 

Only one life to live, only what's done for Christ will last."

My Tess

So, for those of you who don't know...me and my wife Tess are having our second child this fall. Sometime around October 4th. We're pretty excited. We were a little freaked out at first since Olive will only be a year and a few months old at that time. But hey! Life is crazy, might as well add to the craziness!

This blog is to let everyone know how much I love Tess. We're best friends. She is amazing with Olive, definitely the best mom in the world. She not only keeps our little one safe, healthy and happy all day long but she is also putting in 20 hours a week at the 'Bucks to help with bills and health insurance. Most of those who read this blog know how much me and Bryce loathed working at the place. (you probably know Bryce, if not, there is a link to his blog to your right) I finally got out and so did Bryce. But Bryce went back, and somehow I will probably find myself behind that counter again too. Anyways...random tangent.

Tess. She is beautiful and has led me to experience things I always hoped for. Love, compassion, trust, forgiveness, life, fragility, strength. Her heart is for God. Her heart is for her family. Her heart is for me and mine for her. She encourages me in ways that nobody else can. 

Thank you my Tess:)

No coffee outside.

Snow falling in April

the flakes melt in an instant

as the sun somehow throws itself

through these clouds.

Above my head 

in front of my eyes

but not underneath my feet.

The ground is not white

it is not dry.

The ground is covered 

with the remains of hopeful snowflakes. 

I was on Extreme makeover!!

There goes 5 pounds of facial hair. 

MAE and The Honorary Title

Once again we went to the MAE show. We've seen them probably twice a year for the last few years. This time The Honorary Title (which is one of my favorite bands) were along for the ride and opened for MAE. Amazing show, the best show I've probably have ever seen.

It was held at the Marquis Theater in Denver. The smallest venue around ended up hosting this huge show. This was cool cause you couldn't be further than fifty feet from the stage.

This time around MAE had this crazy screen behind them that had all these videos that have been cut to each song. Images of space and time travel , stop motion flowers blooming, trees, buildings, random people and there was all this random obscure footage blended together which matched up with the feeling of each song, each part of each song.

It's weird but MAE is deffinatley more than just music. If you have the chance to grab one of their albums, get "The Everglow" and you'll see what I mean. Then if you get the chance to see them live, do it. They have so much fun up there and sound so freakin good.

Another Trade Show - NAB

This time I'm going to Vegas. My home town. I'll be there from April 12th till the 18th. It's for surely going to be a long and drawn out show. Many hours on my feet telling one person after another why DPA Microphones are the best out there and would either be the right or wrong choice for them.

On one hand it will be cool to be there, I haven't been back in a couple of years. On the other hand the president and vice of the company are going to be there with us and unfortunately they treat us (Me, Joey, and Emily) like kids and are keeping us on a close leash. They have planned out dinners for all of us to attend to each and every night that we are there and are going to make sure that we go to bed "early." Which is dumb because we'll probably be out later with them than if we were on our own. The little bit of free time we have each day is going to be spent with them because they specifically don't want us to get LOST.

Stupid. I know the place inside and out.

But for some reason I am going and I'll make the best of it.

Random thoughts on a Tuesday

As I grow older the world becomes more complicated.
It's hard to let go and trust God.
I really wish that money was never invented.
I want to help people. Especially family.
Time spent with the ones we love is well spent. It matters.
I'm worth it.
You're worth it.
I cry for other people more than I cry for myself.
I get angry for other people more than I get angry for myself.
The world is in a sad state. Most people don't realize that it is all caused by sin.
We need to give ourselves to people and then find out what we personally need to recharge and renew.

*I hope that all of us in the moments of fragility and defeat will find victory. It is there.

I can't wait till God makes everything better (as a whole). Until then I pray that we can learn from our circumstances, decisions, and passions. And take what we learn and apply it to our lives with courage to move forward and change and grow in faith and love. To take what is given to us (talents, knowledge, wisdom, and what we freakin love about life) and use them to the best of our abilities.